Have you ever felt or experienced betrayal?By a word, a moment, friend, lover, circumstance, an act, your self etc.How does one deal with betrayal?With betrayal comes lack of trust, sometimes its not easily gotten over and dealt with. It lingers on and on and you can never bring yourself to have faith in what caused the betrayal again. Every action has an opposite and equal reaction but is the reaction really equal? In the case of betrayal, does the cause justify the consequence?Can you really bring yourself to trust again, can you ever have faith again?Once bitten twice shy.... as the saying goes.

xaries posted at 6:39 PM

I noticed that in life its not always easy to admit one's mistakes.None of us are infallible, we all have our faults and imperfections. Sure sometimes its hard to say your sorry and really mean it. The difference in showing remorse on our accountabiliy depends on how we convey this message.If we truly are apologetic surely the offended party would perceive it.The question then is of accepting the apology.So eventually it would boil down to three things;saying it,meaning it and getting it accepted. Some offended parties have the tendency to have the guilty stew in their own juices before purging their guilt. Others fall into two categories of 'I do' and 'I don't'. Needless to say, these catgeories don't leave you hanging for an answer,judgement is swift and usually final. I think learning to say 'I'm sorry' requires one to be humble and I'm sure humility would solve half the world's problems.... if only all of us could admit our mistakes and redress them, the world would be a better place.
"WHAT ELSE COULD I WRITE?
I DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT
WHAT ELSE SHOULD I BE?
ALL APOLOGIES"....... Nirvana

xaries posted at 11:32 AM

Today's been a lazy day, not that the rest of my days can't fall in that category, but it has been a while since I've had an intellectual orgasm of sorts. Something that would stimulate me to diversify my interests and come up with something fresh and zestful apart from my mundane neuroses.As per my usual idiosyncrasies I was up during the wee hours of the morning pencilling another poem. Of course they just seem to pop into my head everytime I try to get to sleep making me quite the nocturnal poet I seem to have become. Obviously if I don't get the words to paper, they leave me feeling restless and definitely does not help in relieving my lack of slumber. So finally after I've gotten the poem complete then I manage to drain my brain of those ever so persistent thoughts and gradually manage to get some shut eye.

xaries posted at 9:59 PM

Death... we all have experienced it at some time or the other... the death of a loved one, relative, friend, colleague, acquaintance....it affects us in different ways. It all depends on how we connect with the person that died and the ones they've left behind. When someone tells you that their family member has died, there's always that moment of awkwardness that occurs. I mean what can you say to a person that has lost a loved one?Do just say something short and sympathetic or do you prolong it by trying to empathise with the person. Is there any post death etiquette that can be followed without being too distant or too involved.The question is what is the proper thing to say or do without seeming pretentious, I guess a rule of thumb would be to play it by ear and see how far that takes you.

xaries posted at 8:30 PM

Life is a journey for us. In its light we try to fulfill our hopes and dreams and we try to stick to its light and avoid its shadows. But, it is in the shadows of life where the realities of life dwell and which we must face. If we walk through life with our eyes closed thinking of our hopes and dreams, it is the realities that open our eyes to the truth. Truths which are painful, truths which we must face. Life is not a passage of time between birth and death but it is an eternity that is not eternal. It is the dreams and hopes of ours that are unfulfilled and to fulfill them we must open our eyes to face life and its bitter truths. For if all our hopes and dreams were fulfilled, we would walk life's path with our eyes closed and leave no room for disorder and chaos. Foundations are not built on dreams but on realities. It is the bricks of reality that help us fulfill our dreams. Our quest for peace and fulfillment can only come when we have travelled the sands of sadness and pain. Just as happiness is a part of sadness and joy a part of pain, life is the balance of dreams and realities. But, how we balance these two scales of life will tell us how we have lived it.

xaries posted at 8:18 PM

Love, what is it,a feeling? something hard to put into words, a desire, an embrace or just a chemical called Phenyl ethyl amine. Well whatever you believe it to be, it makes the world go round.Some people may say no thats not true, its gravity that does that, well thats true but I meant as in everyday life. In life we have to deal with greed, politics, sex etc. But its all governed by love, love for money, love for power, love for beliefs, love for something you desire or want. We all want something in life and love of whatever it is helps us get it one way or another. It might be a dream, it might be a fantasy but because you want it so bad you'd love to have it and you would do anything for love so love does make the world go round after all doesn't it...

xaries posted at 9:21 PM

Hmmm, there seems to be a lot of controversy about Mel Gibson's The Passion of Christ. Some people say the movie is moving, others say its violent and also anti semitic. Well obviously you would have to expect violence in the movie, it says so in the movie title itself "Passion -The sufferings of Jesus in the period following the Last Supper and including the Crucifixion, as related in the New Testament" (courtesy www.dictionary.com) This man was tortured, beaten and nailed on a cross.People have the tendency of dismissing it as just senseless violence in the movie. Well I think we fail to comprehend what a crucifixion can be like. Its not a pleasant thing, its something really horrible and terrible to have to go through. I know it easy to say the man was crucified but have you ever seen it. Well thanks to this movie you just get a taste of how such an ordeal would be like. How would some one describe such a painful process without delving into it and showing us how its done. Yes of course its violent, violence on a whole new level, quite different from the violence we're used to seeing on tv (mostly) Normally its bang bang, the guy is dead, not a whole torturous process of watching it being done. Sure we'd all love to escape it and rather not watch it but you can say this, if it was so painful to watch, imagine how it must have been to the person who got crucified. People say the movie is anti semitic because it portrays the jewish people as crucifying the christ, well here's a question didn't they really do that, there's no doubts about that is there? So this man went through all that pain, suffering and torture because he wanted to make a sacrifice, his final point to the world. So lets not forget why he endured all that.

xaries posted at 9:32 PM

Have you ever felt like you're trapped in a box and the box seemed to be getting smaller and smaller.That you were being slowly suffocated, that your life was going nowhere and you were a victim of circumstance.That you had no control over the elements that binded you in these invisible chains.Did you grow frustrated like an animal in a cage, pacing around and not knowing how to get out of your situation.Where the only person who knew what you were facing was yourself.... ah if only you could escape it all,hmmm only time will tell.

xaries posted at 8:07 PM

ok here's some thoughts and theories that suddenly decided to pop into my head one day (they usually happen at night just when i'm trying to get to sleep)
I believe that ghosts are some form of electrical energy and why you may ask do I believe this?I obviously have no proof of this but what the heck this blog is for my thoughts right, so here they are. Well firstly they seem to drain batteries and stop making your camcorders or other recording equipment from working. I think they also make other electrical equipment to stop functioning. They also make your hair stand on end.I know that static electricity can do that right. Well lets see what else is a ghost supposed to be able to do,hmmm, walk through walls,float,make objects move,glow and basically scare you shitless. Well doesn't electricity sorta do the same thing as well?? I mean electricity can pass through walls,electricity can definitely float and it can definitely move things (electric trains) and boy can it move things and signs like danger,do not touch 500,000 volts wouldn't that scare you?? Now I'm not sure what type of electricity ghosts actually are but like I said I believe that they are some sort of electricity. People say there's a chill in the air when there's a ghost around,hmm so how do I explain that? Well in electricity there are positive and negative charges right? So what if a ghost is just some negatively charged electrical energy giving you that cold shock when it happens to pass by. The stronger the ghost, the more likely that its electrical composition is strong as well.Ghosts are also said to leave behind some residue called ectoplasm, well according to a theory (not mine) it says that ectoplasm is electro magnetic energy from the earth (www.ghostwatchers.org/ectoplasm.html)
So in a way that sorta supports my theory, hey I didn't research my subject, I just thought about it while I was trying to get some sleep. So what do you think?

xaries posted at 10:17 PM